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C.M. Mayo: I'm thrilled and I'm honored
to have Sara Mansfield Taber on the show today because she's
a dear friend. We met more years ago than I want to admit at
the Bread Loaf Writers Conference where we were both fellows,
but I'm also a great and very, very deep admirer of her writing.
She has a new book coming out which we're going to be talking
about, which is very exciting and very interesting, but I'll
start out with a brief biography of Sara.
This is taken from
her website, which you can visit at SaraTaber.com.
She was raised in Asia, Europe, and the United States as the
daughter of a covert CIA operative. She has a doctorate in human
development from Harvard University, a masters in social work
from the University of Washington and a BA from Carleton College.
In her doctoral work, she specialized in cross-cultural human
development, a blend of psychology and anthropology. A writer
of literary nonfiction, Taber's works include literary journalism,
personal essay, and memoir.
She's the author of Dusk
on the Campo: A Journey in Patagonia and Bread
of Three Rivers: The Story of a French Loaf. She's also
written a writing workbook for internationally global youth entitled
Of
Many Lands: Journal of a Traveling Childhood, which was
published by the Foreign Service Youth Foundation.
She's taught writing
for 15 years at The Writer's
Center in Bethesda, Maryland, in the Masters of Arts and
Writing Program at Johns Hopkins University, and in the MFA program
at Vermont College of Fine Arts, and in private seminars
which we're going to be talking about, both in the U.S. and abroad.
She's married with two children and lives in Washington DC area.
Welcome,
Sara.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Thank you.
It's so nice to be here and talk to you, Catherine.
C.M.
Mayo:
Well this is really fun. We're recording this on Skype, for anybody
who's wondering. I'm in Mexico City and Sara is in Silver Spring,
Maryland, right?
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Yep, over here
in Maryland.
C.M.
Mayo: Right
outside DC So we're going to talk about your new book, Born
Under An Assumed Name: The Memoir of a Cold War Spy's Daughter.
Wow.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
The book is
basically the story of a girl growing up as the daughter of a
spy. It's about what it's like to grow up with secrets and what
that does to a family. It's also about what it's like to move
from culture to culture. There's a lot of material about my love
of the different cultures I was plunked into.
The book really tracks two parallel identity stories, my own
and that of my father. As for my story, it's the story of a shy
girl's adjustments, social struggles, and final triumph as she
moves from country to country and school to school.
And as for my father's story, it's really the story of his career,
and his growing ambivalence with being a spy his mixed
feelings about the various assignments he had and his growing
disaffection with what the U.S. is up to overseas.
So those are the main
threads that go through the book.
It's also very much a story of the Cold War. As the book unfolds
and proceeds, I touch on all the Cold War events that are unfolding
as I develop and as my father goes through his career. So especially,
it's tied to the events in China because my father's bailiwick
was watching the communist Chinese.
C.M.
Mayo: So
he was based in Japan and then Taiwan before you came to the
U.S., and then the Netherlands, which is kind of the outlier,
and then back to the U.S., and then Borneo, and then Japan. So
it was mostly Asia with an interlude in the Netherlands and the
U.S.
But your dad was working a lot in Vietnam, right? I remember
he had a book that you had published at his funeral, of his memoir.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Right.
C.M.
Mayo: He
was one of the last people out of Vietnam.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
That's right,
yes. Well, I was in college when he was in Vietnam and it was
at the very end of our involvement in Vietnam. He had a pretty
crazy exodus from Vietnam.
He was there after the U.S. Embassy was evacuated and was sort
of abandoned by the American government to find his own way out
of Vietnam which was quite a startling thing to have happen.
As part of that exodus, he and his two colleagues managed to
get fifteen hundred people with their families who had worked
for the CIA, he managed to get them to the U.S. by flagging down
a ship in the ocean so that these people wouldn't be persecuted
by the communists coming in. So that was something he was very
proud of.
C.M.
Mayo: Really
heroic. His memoir that you had published for him at his funeral
He never saw the book published?
Sara Mansfield Taber:
He did see
it. It arrived two days before he died.
C.M.
Mayo: Oh,
so he did see it. That must have been so nice for him to see
that.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Absolutely,
yes.
C.M.
Mayo: Can
you tell us the title and where people can find a copy of that
book?
Sara Mansfield Taber:
It's called
Get Out Any Way You Can. It's the story of the House Seven Propaganda
Force in Saigon and their evacuation from Vietnam. His name is
Charles Eugene Taber. It can be purchased through the usual suspects
on the Web.
C.M.
Mayo:
Amazon.com.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Yeah.
C.M.
Mayo:
That's wonderful to know. That's a very important document for
anyone studying the history of the Vietnam War.
He ran the radio there, no?
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Right. He and
his colleagues ran an underground propaganda radio station that
beamed to the Vietcong in the North and the North Vietnamese
and to Laos and Cambodia.
It was this full radio station from dawn through the evening
with drama and news and singing and everything you can name,
but oriented toward convincing communists to come over to our
side.
C.M.
Mayo: Now
when this was going on you then were already in college. You
had left home.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Right.
At the end of the war there was a long period when we didn't
know what was going on with my father. He and these colleagues
were stuck on an island off the south of Vietnam. We didn't know
what was happening because he was still there after supposedly
all the Americans had left.
C.M.
Mayo: Oh,
that must have been terrifying! How long did that go on?
Sara Mansfield Taber:
It was a week
or two, I think. My mother had been evacuated to Taiwan and she
was up there biting her nails.
C.M.
Mayo: I
can't even imagine. That must have been absolutely terrifying.
I think the Vietnam War is something that, golly, it already
seems so long ago... for me just growing up it was every night,
you know, Walter Cronkite... You had to kind of think your way
through what were we doing there, and what did it mean and getting
that outcome... Anyway, your book is tackling such a really profound
issue, personal identity and identity as an Amerian. It's so
interesting too that you grew up in all these different countries,
Japan, Taiwan, the U.S., Netherlands, U.S. again at a different
age, and then Borneo and Japan again, so it kind of comes
full circle.
But each of these countries, although most of them are in Asia
are unbelievably different from one another. Borneo, Japan, Taiwanit's
difficult to imagine countries more different from one another!
That must have been so challenging, to be pulled out of one and
thrust into another.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
My family was
very adventurous and interested in other cultures, so it was
also exhilarating. I basically loved each place. But the adjustment
was huge each time we moved.
And the harder part really was adjusting to new schools. Most
of my schools were international or American school. But schools
are quite different from place to place, so each one was a big
adjustment.
C.M.
Mayo:
And the age, too. My personal theory, Sara, is that 8th grade
is Hell on Earth for everybody!
Sara Mansfield Taber: Absolutely.
C.M.
Mayo:
There are certain ages that are more difficult.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Exactly. My hardest transition
was from a tiny school in Holland where I had 14 students in
my class to a school in Washington DC, which was not so large
by American standards, but much, much bigger than that. And moving
from a tiny family-like school to a big, sophisticated Washington
DC school was very difficult. And that was in 9th grade.
C.M.
Mayo:
And that was when you went to Sidwell Friends?
Sara Mansfield Taber: Right. I went to Sidwell Friends
School, which was just full of very sophisticated Washingtonians.
A lot of children of politicos and journalists and very well-off
people.
C.M.
Mayo:
For those who are listening who don't know Sidwell Friends, it's
kind of a funny
I mean, I never went there, but I've lived
in Washington and what always struck me about it was that kind
of funny juxtaposition, that it's a Quaker school so from that angle I would think
it would not be a particularly socially sophisticated school
and yet it is. This is where Chelsea Clinton went and
Obama daughters are there and so on and so forth. So it's the
private school in Washington DC. Very rigorous academically,
as well.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Right. Back then it wasn't
quite so full of celebrities [laughs] but still it had a lot
of liberal elite of Washington, and it was just a whole new culture
for me.
You know, it was also the 60s and people were pretty cool. Everyone
was dressed like hippies. It was just a whole new
C.M.
Mayo:
Bell bottoms and hip huggers and peace signs.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Right. Exactly. The thing
that saved me really was that I got very involved in the anti-war
movement. Sidwell being a Quaker school was very supportive of
that, so I kind of found my niche through the anti-war movement.
C.M.
Mayo:
That must have been so difficult though, with your dad working
in Vietnam.
Sara Mansfield Taber: It was very ironic. I mean
[laughs] to have my father be in the CIA.
Of course at least half of that time in Washington I didn't know
my father was in the CIA. I only found out when I was 15.
The upshot of finding that out is described in the book. I had
maybe an unexpected response to it, and I'll just say that I
adored my father so that didn't change. Although finding out
he was a spy raised a lot of questions.
C.M.
Mayo:
Well, it's funny talking about your book because it's not a novel,
it's nonfiction, but your writing is all novel-like so I don't
want to give away the ending! I don't want to give away the plot.
I think this is something people are going to have to read from
beginning to end.
But
I did read an earlier chapter that you showed me, the one on
Taiwan. That was absolutely fascinating and particularly for
me because I've lived in Mexico for many years. It's always a
bit of
it takes some adjustment to come into a culture where
it's normal and expected and even to some extent part of the
social contract to have servants. You quickly realize that you're
giving a job to someone who needs a job, but growing up in most
places in the U.S. in the latter half of the 20th century, most
people didn't have servants and nannies. So it's really kind
of a foreign thing to be thrust into that. And yet you were a
tiny, little kid there in China.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Yeah. I mean
it was just very different than what we live here in the U.S.
Yeah, we had a cook, a nanny, and a maidbut a tiny house.
Yes, I mean we were basically able to employ people who really
needed work. Taiwan was extremely poor at that time.
But yeah, these four years in Taiwan we had a baby ama, as they
were called. She looked after my brother and me. My brother was
two years younger. We adored her. To me, that was just normal
life.
But years later when we lived in Borneo and had servants, I found
it very uncomfortable and would refuse to ring the bell for dinner,
that kind of thing. But my parents did explain to me that actually
our cook had his own servant at his house. So having servants
in Asia is very, very common. Also my parents pointed out that
we were offering our cook and our maid really good jobs.
So that complicated things. I couldn't look at it in quite so
simple a way as I might have if I'd just stayed in America.
C.M.
Mayo: It
must have been a big shock to come from Taiwan and the Netherlands
to the U.S. I mean to come back to the U.S. Not just the change
of culture but also that you were a different age at the two
times you came back to the U.S.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Right. I came
in 1962 and then back in 1968.
In 1962, America was really like a 1950s place with people wearing
Bermuda shorts and cowboy hats. [Laughs] It was just sort of
hunky-dory all the time and extremely patriotic. It was before
we were enmeshed in the Vietnam War. I think the world looked
simpler. We were still sort of in the World War II mode of thinking.
We were on top of the world pretty much.
And then coming back in 1968 was a whole different order of business
and was not the American I had come back to in 1962. Washington
had just been
there had been huge civil rights demonstrations,
and then the whole anti-war movement was in a fervor. So when
I came back then, there was a lot of anti-American feeling in
America, whereas earlier it had been all rah, rah America.
So very different countries I came back to each time.
C.M.
Mayo: And
that was right when you went into high school, right? Oh, no,
no... ten you went to Borneo, then you went to Japan, and then
you went to high school.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
No. My second
time coming back to the U.S. was as I was entering high school
at Sidwell Friends.
C.M.
Mayo: That
was in 68. That was an incredibly standout year of huge change.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Right. It was
just a turmoil in Washington but very, really interesting.
Being at a Quaker school was very formative for me because we
had meeting for worship each week that was a silent meeting
when people spoke about their political concerns, when they were
inspired to. It was just a time that opened up my mind and made
me think harder about a lot of things.
Before that, I'd been just a zealous patriot in a very simple-minded
black and white way. And then when I entered Sidwell all of that
got shook up.
C.M.
Mayo:
One of the chapters of your book that I read before it was in
the book was your chapter about growing up in the Netherlands
and how there was
what I recall about that aside from
the beautiful, poetic language was that there was such
a sense of tension between the Americans and the "Dutchies."
Sara Mansfield Taber: Right. As I said, I went to
this tiny, American school. We were so ardently American.
It was really something! [Laughs]
I think this is common in American children raised overseas and
probably all children raised out of their countries. They become
more patriotic than the people at home.
C.M.
Mayo: More
American than
we see that in Mexico too. [Laughs]
Sara Mansfield Taber:
More American
than the Americans. It's kind of crazy. So we were always comparing
ourselves to the Dutch and claiming that we were better and our
cheese was better, and our toilet paper was better, and our everything
was better.
That age, that middle school age tends to be that way, very black
and white about everything.
C.M.
Mayo:
Oh, yeah. It's such a difficult age because you're still trying
to figure out who you are I guess we're always trying to
figure out who we are, but I think that age has got to be the
worst! [Laughs]
Sara Mansfield Taber:
It is horrible.
[Laughs]
C.M.
Mayo: I
felt that you portrayed that so well, because in my own life
living abroad when I was younger I remember trivia would just
really grate on me. I think that's normal. I think when people
go abroad at first it's very exciting and invigorating and wonderful,
but then after about three weeks, it starts getting very grating,
and little things really start to bother you. Again, I don't
think this is just me. I think this is normal.
I remember in England one of the things that really bothered
me was their ketchup. Their ketchup was just horrible in the
70s. Then the other thing that drove me bananas was their cords,
their plugs. You know, if you had a hair dryer or something like
that, they had all these weird little plugs with round holes
and square holes and different sizes, and I'd go, why can't
they just have a normal plug?! [Laughs] These kinds of things
would take on enormous significance, which I find really funny
now. I'm kind of relaxed about that sort of thing at this point.
I've been 25 years on and off in Mexico. It's like, listen, I
just can't get upset about trivia because otherwise I'd never
get up in the morning. [Laughs] I felt that you conveyed that
so well in that chapter about the Netherlands.
I look
forward to reading your book, Sara. I haven't read the whole
thing since it hasn't come out yet, but I'm really excited about
reading it.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Thank you. I do have a lot
about both loving and being very ambivalent about different things
in different cultures, for sure.
C.M.
Mayo:
At a less personal level, it's also about how one CIA operative,
at least as far as his daughter understood what he was doing
or not doing, was working during the Cold War. So a question
I have for you is in writing the book itself, just coming back
to these memories and thinking over it and thinking over it,
as you have to do when you write a book, did you find any change
in how you thought about what it meant to be American? And also
how you see the CIA itself by the time you finish writing
the book?
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Yeah. I definitely
sort of had to struggle with all of those issues about what America
does abroad and what the CIA does abroad as I wrote the book.
That was part of why I needed to write it was to find out what
I thought and sort out what I thought.
And in a way my thinking evolved sort of in parallel to my father's
because he came into the CIA out of World War II, when entering
the agency was about the most patriotic thing you could do
to fight fascists and evil people around the world. So he came
in really optimistic and hopeful.
But then he saw how sometimes we used people in ways that really
endangered them and didn't have much of a profitable outcome.
My father's thinking
was that there are very difficult things that are happening in
the world all the time, and there are people with very mixed
motives and people with harmful motives. And so you do need a
CIA to keep track of what's going on around the world, and know
what people are plotting, and know what people in questionable
regimes are up to.
So finding out the truth about what's going on across the world
is a good idea. And I think he believed that all the way through
his career, that an intelligence agency is important. You need
to have one.
What he had trouble with was when we meddled in the internal
affairs of countries, in some cases, and also he worried about
the individuals who we put in jeopardy by either supporting them
or putting them up to things that put them in danger, or in fact
led them into situations where they were killed.
And he was involved in things where people died as a result of
our supporting them or our working with them. That was very troubling
to him, how we often abandoned people who helped us. That was
really difficult for him.
Then on a larger scale
he was very concerned about what we were doing in Vietnam ultimately,
and how we overthrew democratic regimes, and that sort of thing.
So on the scale of our policy objectives, he often had questions.
So as I went along tracking what he was doing through the book,
I just had a rollercoaster ride of feeling like, OK, yeah, we
do need to know what's going on in other countries, and, oh
my gosh, we're doing horrible things.
While we need an intelligence service we need to really scale
back on our interference in other countries.
C.M.
Mayo: It
seems to me like it's so difficult because it's a bureaucracy,
and bureaucracies I think always have
I think of them as
they kind of have a life of their own. Then by its nature, it's
secret, so all sorts of things can be kept secret that maybe
don't need to be, or if they were brought out into the light
would never be approved of.
I can see the conundrum.
Well what happened after Vietnam? Your dad came back to the U.S.
at that point?
Sara Mansfield Taber:
He came back
to the U.S. He worked in the CIA training center for a year or
two and then his last assignment was in Germany in Bonn and there,
his growing disaffection with the agency really came to a head
when he was asked to find evidence for something President Reagan
said that simply wasn't there.
Reagan had made a big pronouncement about communists in Germany
and communists being behind the anti-nuclear protests in Germany.
And those protests were completely homegrown and sincere, and
my father's task was to find evidence that it was the communists,
the Russians behind it. He just found this the most disingenuous
way of conducting foreign affairs, basically.
So that really was
the straw that broke the camel's back and he decided to retire
early. He just couldn't support and stand up for lies.
C.M.
Mayo:
Let's start talking more about writing here.
One of the things that really interests me as a writer is reading
as a writer. So in order to write a book like this this
beautiful literary work that you doI know that you read
other writers so who are the writers who have most influenced
you? And who would you say has most influenced you in the writing
of this particular book?
Sara Mansfield
Taber: One
writer that I read and studied a lot when I was first starting
out writing this book was Jamaica Kincaid and in particular her
book Annie
John, which I just love. She writes very much from a
child's point of view. That's what I was trying to do with this
book, too: to see the world as the girl I was back then saw it.
Jamaica Kincaid does that beautifully.
Other writers that
have influenced me a lot especially in my literary journalism
work are Bruce Chatwin and John Berger, both of whom write about
other cultures in just an absolutely beautiful way. Another writer
of other cultures who I admire hugely is C.M. Mayo!
C.M.
Mayo: Oh,
come on, Sara! You're sweet. I send you a kiss over the Internet!
[Laughs]
Sara Mansfield Taber:
You are just
one of the most exquisite, user of figurative language I've ever
come across. I mean, your similes and metaphors and your descriptive
passages about cultures and people are just exquisite. You're
another writer who's influenced me.
C.M.
Mayo:
You're very dear. Bruce Chatwin, he's one I absolutely love.
I sometimes get exasperated with him, though. He's so wild and
wacky and his language is so poetic, so British.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Yeah. His travel
writings are much more those of passing through than my writing
about cultures. I tend to go a little deeper, whereas he writes
fabulous things about brief encounters.
C.M.
Mayo: I
sort of feel like Bruce Chatwin is just Bruce Chatwin. He's just
the fabulous Bruce Fabulous Chatwin and because he's so fabulous,
everything he sees and does is just fabulous. I'm so inspired
by him as a writer ,but that isn't what I'm trying to do. For
me, what's so amazing about Bruce Chatwin is the language, and
the child-like sense of wonder, and how he gets so enthusiastic
about things.
Sara
Mansfield Taber:
Exactly.
C.M.
Mayo: I
love that and I do try to emulate that but I'm not trying to
be Bruce Chatwin. I think there's only one Bruce Chatwin.
Sara Mansfield Taber: I used to study his sentences.
I would copy down various kinds of sentences he wrote onto index
cards and try to model some of my sentences after his, because
he uses sentences of different lengths and... in an interesting
way.
C.M.
Mayo: This
is one of my favorite subjects, syntax! Because I love that.
In fact, this is what I do in my workshops and it's something
I started doing only a few years ago and I wish I had done it
sooner is... precisely that. When I see a sentence that
just has so much music in it and it's so interesting to take
that syntax and vary the nouns and verbs or whatever so that
I'm not plagiarizing it. It's mine, but I'm keeping that structure
and it's almost like doing verbal yoga.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Yeah. It's
fun to take on someone else's sensibility for a little while
and try to absorb a little of it.
C.M.
Mayo: I
love it!
So when you are reading you read with your notebook or you read
with index cards? As teachers of writing, we talk a lot about
how to read as a writer. What would you say about that?
Sara Mansfield Taber:
I write all
over everything I read! I spend, oh, thousands of hours making
notes in books I admired, and especially looking at how they
structured them, how they might open the book, how a chapter
would be structured. Where they would have a scene, where they
would have historical information, where they'd have exposition.
How much of the text was dialogue, what was description, and
sort of, how it was paced and sequenced in the book.
I did a lot of studying of structure. That was a huge, huge part
of my self-study.
C.M.
Mayo:
I would say exactly the same. I think thinking of my book on
Baja California, Miraculous Air structuring it was
so hard because when people try to write memoir and or literary
travel memoir, which is kind of the same thing, there's a huge
overlap between the two genres, personal memoir and literary
travel memoir there's that problem of how do you get in
the information? Like, what was going on in the Cold War or what
is Taiwan or who was President thus and such?
So how do you have it read like a novel, which is the ideal,
the Chatwin-esque ideal, so that we pick it up, and we just read
it through delightfully without it feeling like, oh my God
now we're in the textbook chapter where the professor is speaking
and it's this jarring change in tone.
Yeah, I mean for me a big master there is Ted Conover. I took
a lot from him and also V.S. Naipaul how to get that information in and yet
keep it novelesque.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Absolutely.
How to not have an "expository lump," as Ursula Le
Guin says.
C.M.
Mayo: The
"expository lump," exactly! [Laugh]
So we chop up the expository lumps and sort of lard them through,
no?
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Exactly. How
to sneak in the exposition? It's really hard. I struggled with
that a lot in this book. I don't know if I mastered it or not,
but I ended up sneaking in some of the Cold War facts through
dialogue with my father. So I have conversations in which he
explains to me what's going on in the world, which actually did
happen all the time with him. But that was one solution I came
to as a way to convey information.
But oh, yeah, it's really a challenge in these books where you
want to bring in history and lots of background as well as tell
a personal story.
C.M.
Mayo:
So reading as a writer another thing I've noticed about you is
you always have your notebook with you. Always, always, always!
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Absolutely.
I'm a fanatic note taker and just note things down all day long.
Thoughts that come to me, things I observe, just items I might
see along the way, or in a museum. I'm always noting down things
that are of interest to me, and thoughts that occur to me, and
sentences that may fit in the piece of writing I'm working on.
I feel like it's really important to capture those thoughts and
moments and observations in writing immediately because
I lose them at least if I don't note them down in the moment.
So I'm a great index card fanatic, too. I keep them all over
the house for making notes on it as something occurs to me.
C.M.
Mayo: I
say the same. I think for me the worst has to be to be somewhere
where I overhear or see something fascinating and I have nothing
to write on! Oh, I just want to pull my hair out!
Sara Mansfield
Taber: Exactly!
C.M.
Mayo:
Because I have no short-term memory! I just can't remember. I
think, that's so cool but what was it? It's just gone!
Sara Mansfield Taber: I even have this crazy systemespecially
when I'm deep in a book where I have a whole file box with
dividers in which I stick these various index cards. I have all
the different topics in there, so I can put my index cards in
the right places and then use them later.
C.M.
Mayo: That's
the nice thing about index cards as opposed to notebooks. You
can file things like that.
Another problem with notebooks I always say this in my
writing workshop, I try to be open to the idea that everybody
is different, you know, my prescription may not be the right
thing for everybody but that said I just am very down on these fancy notebooks.
I find them very intimidating. You go to Barnes & Noble or
Politics & Prose and they have these gorgeous notebooks you
know, with butterflies on the cover and I don't know what. So
you have this beautiful writer's notebook... and then I find
I can't write anything in it! I feel like I have to write something
intelligent. [Laughs]
I mean, to me it's more interesting to just write down some funny
thing I heard on some card in a museum or whatever that just
sort of jogs my memory or some word that I think is interesting
that I want to be sure to use... I wouldn't put that in a beautiful
notebook with the butterflies on it. [Laughs]
Plus, you can't put those things in your purse. They're huge!
An index card can go in a wallet.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Right. I do
think index cards and scraps of paper are the best. [Laughs]
Corners of things.
C.M.
Mayo: Even
if I don't file them and they get lost, just the act of paying
attention, the act of writing it down...
At what point when you're a writer at what point are you writing?
I think there's such a gray area because that process of noticing
and taking notes is part of writing.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
It's constant.
Luckily and sadly I think if you're a writer you're just kind
of always writing. You're always collecting material or thinking
something through or plotting or writing sentences in your mind.
C.M.
Mayo: Do
you have another book on the horizon? I know you're going to
be taken up a lot this winter with promoting the memoir, but
do you have another idea in the oven?
Sara Mansfield Taber:
At the moment
I'm mostly writing essays on topics that occur to me. Just little,
short essays, and also writing some more stuff about family and
I don't know what it might become. Basically I would like to
do something in the literary journalism arena again, doing interviewing
with people. I haven't nailed down the topic yet but that is
inviting to me.
I've now spent all these years sorting out my own life, and what
I really enjoy the most is talking to other people about their
lives and writing about those lives. I'd like to get back to
that, I think.
C.M.
Mayo: I
can relate to that, Sara. I'm starting a book in the winter about
Marfa, Texas and it's really just because I want to interview
people. [Laughs] I just want to talk to them. When you have a
book you can ask people more questions than you would normally
ask, say, a neighbor. You might seem very nosey asking a lot
of questions of a neighbor or an acquaintance, but when you have
a book project, I find most people are fairly forthcoming and
generous to someone who's writing about them. And I just love
that. It's such a privilege.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Absolutely.
There's just nothing better than interviewing people. I just
find people so amazing how they triumph in spite of great struggles.
I love hearing about that and writing about that and honoring
them and bringing out people's stories. As you say, it is just
a huge honor and a huge pleasure. You want to give that pleasure
to other people by passing it along in writing.
C.M.
Mayo: So
this is coming back to what you did in your earlier book. You
have Bread
of Three Rivers: The Story of a French Loaf. I loved
that book.
What I recall about the book was how you had looked at the ingredients
of a prize-winning loaf of French bread that was just so incredibly
delicious and what were these ingredients? The salt, the flour,
the yeast, and the water and then interviewing the people
and going and talking to the people.
We have a blurb from Jacques Pépin, author and cohost
of PBS TV's Cooking at Home. He's a big deal in the culinary
world.
"The greatest treat in the world for me is a chunk of
superlative, crusty, fresh country bread covered lavishly with
the best possible butter. Bread of Three Rivers is an
in-depth poetic study of the most basic of all foods, bread."
And
Richard Goodman, our mutual friend and the author of French
Dirt: The Story of a Garden in the South of France says
and I completely agree with him:
"This is one of the most compelling, knowledgeable, and
graceful books about the French soul that has ever been written
by an American."
Because you went in and interviewed people in French about their
world and their work, the guy who produced the yeast, and the
guy who had the flour mill, and the baker and all these people.
Then
you also had that wonderful book, Dusk
on the Campo: A Journey in Patagonia, which had a lot of interviews.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Right. That one is the story
of a sheep ranching community in Southern Argentina and the story
of sort of the rise and fall of that community. It was Basque
people came from France and Spain and settled there in the 1880s
and set up and worked on these vast sheep ranches and it's the
story of this very, very isolated community and the people there
and how they survive in social isolation, and what their lives
are like as sheep farmers.
It was just wonderful experience talking to them. They're some
of the most warm, hospitable people in the world. When you live
way out in the scrublands by yourself, you tend to be very open
to other people. These Argentines, if you turn up on their doorstep
they take you in as though you're a long lost relative.
C.M.
Mayo:
That's really extraordinary. Well, are you going to be writing
about another country or will you be writing more about the U.S.?
Sara Mansfield Taber: I'm hoping to do some writing
about women in different countries. So that's one thing that's
on my agenda. I love hearing people in different cultures...
just have such different world views and different metaphors
for experiences we all hold in common. So I would love to try
to capture some of that on the page and explore that more. You
know, just how people see the world and life and what's important
and what it means to be a woman, and all that kind of thing.
We'll see what happens.
C.M.
Mayo:
Fascinating. Teaching is an important part of what you do as
a writer. You've been teaching for many years, both at the Writer's
Center and other venues. I think more recently at the Vermont
Cente? And you also teach privately as well.
Sara Mansfield Taber: I do a lot of teaching in
my home, which is really fun. I have writer's workshops there
and some of those have been going on for years, which is really
fun because I have the same people year after year and I get
to watch their books come into the world.
I do love teaching. I think everybody has an important story
to tell. I find that with support and rigorous commenting, people
become better and better writers and produce these beautiful,
creative works of art. So it's just wonderful to be able to support
that, and lots of different people.
C.M.
Mayo:
I would think it's helpful for you as a writer as well to stay
connected with that. Because I know it is for me.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Oh, yeah. Absolutely. You're
thinking about words all the time and how they work best and
how to structure a piece of writing. It just keeps you on your
toes having to think about it!
C.M.
Mayo:
You teach a manuscript critique where everybody brings a manuscript
and you sort of lead the critique session?
Sara Mansfield Taber: Right, I do that kind and
then I also have a new format, which I call the Memoir Club,
wherein people just come and read work aloud so nobody takes
anything home or marks pages, but they respond to pieces read
aloud. That's a lot of fun, too. And amazingly, you can get very
helpful feedback even in that kind of format.
C.M.
Mayo:
Just the act of reading aloud
I
find when I'm reading my own work aloud not so much when
it's already been published, then there's nothing I can do about
it at that point but when I'm reading a draft aloud, oh!
I find all these things I want to fix.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Right!
C.M.
Mayo:
I suddenly realize, oh! That paragraph went on way too
long!
Sara Mansfield Taber: Yeah. It's so useful to read
your work aloud and to hear someone else read it is sometimes
really helpful.
C.M.
Mayo:
Oh, terrifying. Just the act of reading aloud I think... I've
been at this for so long that I don't have any problem with that.
But when I started out I think I was like most people, it was
very difficult to read my own work and almost impossible
to read my own work in my natural voice. I would just feel my
throat get all tight and it was very difficult. So just getting
used to coming and reading aloud is enormously helpful, I would
think.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Yeah. That's good. I should
add, in all of my classes I always have people do some free writing
as part of the workshop. I can't overestimate the value of that.
There's just something about being forced to write something
impromptu to a surprising prompt. You just produce material you
didn't expect to produce and surprise yourself.
C.M.
Mayo:
I know, and then the fact that it's under a clock and then you
get to share it with other people it is a formula for some
magic.
Sara Mansfield Taber: It really is. It's very cool.
C.M.
Mayo:
So if people want to find out about your workshops they can just
go to your website, which is SaraTaber.com.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Or just email me to ask what
I'm teaching at the moment, which is Sara@SaraTaber.com.
C.M.
Mayo:
And then your new book, Born Under an Assumed Name: The Memoir
of a Cold War Spy's Daughter, that is going to be available
in January 2012 from all the usual suspectsso that means
Amazon.com, BarnesandNoble.com and of course your local independent
American bookstore. Go to Politics & Prose or, if you're
in Northern California go to Kepler's or, if you're in Denver
it would be Tattered Cover. All those places will carry it and
if for any reason you don't see it on the shelf, you can ask
them to order it.
One of the things that drives me nuts as a writer is people are
always saying, "How can I get your books?" I'm like,
the bookstore. [Laughs]
You know, what a lot of people don't realize is if you don't
find the book there, they can just order it. It's not a big deal.
It's not like if you don't find it on the shelf, oh my God, you
can never get the book. It's carried by a distributor so the
clerk can just order it and send it to you, it's not a big deal.
So it's easy to get it. That's exciting.
I noticed
you also have a Podomatic page there so people can listen to
your podcasts. I'm assuming if anybody is listening to this podcast
after the fact, the podcast of your reading in 2012 at Politics
& Prose should be on your website, right? Or also the one
at Politics & Prose I think they are recording all their
book events now.
Sara Mansfield Taber: The one that's up there now
is a lecture I gave on my struggle to find the right story for
my book, for Born Under an Assumed Name. So it's a lecture
on the memoirist's conundrum, that of trying to figure out which
story of the many of your life you're going to nail down as the
one for a particular book.
Listen to
Taber's lecture on writing memoir
C.M.
Mayo:
That's a very important topic. I remember when I did my first
draft of my travel book it was like the telephone book, it was
ridiculous! I wanted to tell the truth so I felt like I had to
put everything in, in order to tell the truth because
I realized that the minute you leave something out, you're sculpting
the truth. But you can't possibly put everything in, or it won't
be readable.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Right, it's
very difficult. There are so many truths, and you can't put them
all in. [Laughs]
C.M.
Mayo:
This lecture that you gave that's a podcast on your website this
was at the Vermont Center for
Sara Mansfield Taber: The Vermont College of Fine
Arts.
C.M.
Mayo:
Where you're teaching in the MFA program.
Sara Mansfield Taber: Right.
C.M.
Mayo:
You know, for those of you who are listening this is really a
resource. Guess what, you can have it for free on the website!
So it's really a resource for anyone who wants to learn more
about writing or memoir writing or personal memoir or travel
memoir writing to just download that podcast and listen to it.
It's really well worthwhile.
Listen to
Taber's lecture on writing memoir
Another
really cool thing about Sara Taber's website is you have a whole
page of just advice for other writers. You've been at this for
a very long time. You have several books now and you've published
in some really interesting places literary journals and
also the Washington Post. This is just a wonderful resource
for any writer out there, so be sure to check that out at SaraTaber.com.
Sara, before we sign off, is there any last thing you'd like
to add?
Sara Mansfield Taber:
I'm going to
be starting a blog about writing writing and spies in the
new year. So if people are interested in more tips about writing
I'm going to have a lot, especially writing memoire on this blog.
So in case that's of interest to people I wanted to mention that.
C.M.
Mayo: Fantastic.
I noticed your blog. Again, we're recording this in December
2011. Your blog right now has your podcast. So you'll be taking
that up in January with lots more going on.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Right, exactly.
C.M.
Mayo:
I wish you so much luck with your new book. From what I know
of your other books and the couple chapters I've read, I am so
excited to be able to read this book when it comes out. I'm really,
really looking forward to it. Born Under an Assumed Name:
The Memoir of a Cold War Spy's Daughter by Sara Mansfield
Taber. Check it out at SaraTaber.com.
If you hear this in time, go to the Politics & Prose reading.
I'm sure there'll be some other events as well, so go check out
SaraTaber.com and if you can go to one of them, go get your autographed
first edition!
Sara,
thank you so much. It has been such a pleasure to chat with you.
Sara Mansfield Taber:
Thank you,
Catherine. Wonderful to talk to you, too.
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